I know I’ve been on this medication for seven long years, and that it has melded itself right into my DNA. Sure. I know that.
I know that this stuff has eased all of the aches and pains of the fibromyalgia that had been slowing me down. It gave me some energy, that’s true. It helped me to sleep. And, you know, even though it’s prescribed for the fibromyalgia, it is actually an antidepressant.
So, ya know, it might or might not have made me a little more serene than I used to be.
I don’t know.
All I know is that as I wrote a while ago, I am ALL done with this liver pickling, dependence-creating Big Pharma non-hippy chemical answer to my problems.
I don’t need it.
I can quit any time.
Which is what I’m trying to do. Really carefully. And very slowly. Because the drug in question, “Cymbalta,” has its very own recognized syndrome. Yes, “ Cymbalta Discontinuation Syndrome “ is a thing.
Like, an actual, real medically recognized thing. Getting off this stuff is like quitting alcohol, caffeine, chocolate, Bridgerton, and weed all in the same week. Or worse.
If you know me, you know that I am a big old baby when it comes to physical discomfort.
So I talked to my doctor, and we decided that I should reduce my dose from the 90 mg I’ve been taking for four years, and go down to 60 mg. I can’t cut it down more slowly because some genius in the marketing department at whichever big pharma company makes this stuff decided that it could only be made in dosages of 30 mg and 60 mg. And they’re not nice solid pills that a person could chop in half; it only comes in capsules full of tiny dots of magical poison. You can’t cut them in halves or fourths.
I reduced my dose by 33% and hoped for the best.
And here I am, two weeks later, thinking “I CAN QUIT WHENEVER I WANT TO” and “HOLY ACHING EXHAUSTED BODY” at the very same time.
Sleep has become something of a joke, as I fall happily asleep somewhere around midnight now (instead of 9 pm). I sleep deeply until roughly 12:10, at which point I wake up to pee and remain awake for roughly two hours. I fall back to sleep around 2, wake up at 3, wake up again at 4, and then sleep well from 4 to 7.